50 in two hours!!

Oh my! It's been 4 years since I've blogged. In 2 hours I will be 50!! A lot has happened in the last few months. I quit my job of 14 years in June. I bought myself a car (I haven't owned one in over 5 years). I went on a cruise to Mexico. I went to Las Vegas twice. Busy and so wonderful for me. I haven't been able to do any of that because I always had to work. I feel like I missed out on so much because of my job. Don't get me wrong, I loved working at Beehive. I am a single mother so not working wasn't an option. I didn't get child support so I had to work. My kids were my reason for getting up every morning at 4:30 to get ready for work. My body went through a lot too. I was always sick, I missed out on assemblies, games and other things. I had to support them so I did it. I was good at my job. I felt that my skills were needed. I trained so many people there. I learned a lot. The last couple of years there, I felt that I was no longer needed. I would train those that were trainers as their titles, yet I was turned down for a training position multiple times. I felt used and neglected so I left. It wasn't an easy decision for me. I prayed about it. I cried over it. Overall my decision was the right one for me. I love love love being at home. I still have to figure out how to make money, but I love it!!! Now I find myself about to turn 50,still single, unemployed, no money, and a little lost. I intend to go back to school. I would like to meet a nice kind man who doesn't mind that I have a little extra weight on me...lol. I just feel a little lost.